The last few weeks I’ve been focusing on putting myself back together. I haven’t been posting much because it’s just been so messy. One minute I feel like things are looking up, and the next I find myself thinking everything is just so hard, how can I ever put this back together? I’m constantly on a roller coaster of emotions. But the facts say things are looking up.
After over three weeks of searching–and navigating the healthcare system–I finally have an appointment with a therapist. I also got a call back about the volunteer position at the hospital. Turns out they misfiled my paperwork from the interview. I go in for a drug screening tomorrow and training on Monday. I’ve also joined two facebook groups for women like me–one for local women who have also lost babies, and another for mothers without living children who are trying to get pregnant after loss (very specific, I know). Both have helped me realize just how not-that-crazy-after-all I am.
I feel pretty okay right now. And okay is good. I feel like I’m actually doing something to help myself get better, and I’m proud of myself for that.
Here’s to feeling okay.